Some things I found off the net, describing perfectly how I felt right now.

A little bit of guilt,
a little bit of sadness,
a little bit of regret,
And a whole load of what-ifs.

I'm sorry,
did not mean to hurt you,
It's beyond me,
I cannot carry the weight of a heavy world,
Goodnight, hope you
sleep well tonight,
And hope that things will turn up alright.